Weekend regurgitation: I tried to live out loud once but the world kept hitting the mute button

by Creative Junkie on February 13, 2011

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Once upon a time, I used to be a paper scrapbooker who transitioned into a digital scrapbooker. I downloaded photos from my digital cameras and used Photoshop to transform them into something amazing and then I designed pages around them and either turned them into hardbound books or printed them out and inserted them into albums. It was my hope that each time my kids would flip through their memories, both paper and digital, they would be reminded that their lives do not, in fact, suck and the most fun they ever had was not, in fact, spent as a fetus.

Then I turned my fun hobby into a business and watched all the joy disappear and the creativity get sucked out of my head, leaving my brain a shriveled up raisin floating in gray matter. And then I stopped scrapbooking altogether.

That was 27,366 digital photos ago. I’ve made a decision to start scrapping them digitally again, even if it takes me fifty years and I wind up at the pearly gates yelling YOU PEOPLE BETTER HAVE AN AWESOME DSL CONNECTION AND MEAL PLAN OR I WANT MY MONEY BACK. AND WHAT’S WITH THE WINGS? THEY’RE ITCHY.

I leave you with a post I wrote last year about a moment that I managed to capture forever. Only 27,365 left to go.

Happy Sunday, everyone!



I tried to live out loud once but the world kept hitting the mute button

(originally published February, 2010)


I am in the process of moving 250 gigabytes of my hard drive over to my brand spanking new laptop and when I say “I” I totally mean Nate because that’s how we roll around here. I move Heaven and Earth and Nate moves furniture and data.

I came across these photos I took of Helena as she was rocking it out in our driveway a couple of years ago and it brought to mind so many Once Upon a Times …

Once upon a time, a little girl who turned out to be an extrovert with a capital LOOK AT ME, MOMMY! LOOK! LOOK! ARE YOU LOOKING? was born to a woman who turned out to be an introvert with a capital AACK! DON’T LOOK AT ME! OH MY GOD, STOP IT. FOR GOD’S SAKE, WHY DON’T YOU JUST CLUB ME TO DEATH WITH A MONKEY ALREADY?

Once upon a time, that little extrovert liked to dance in the driveway to music only she could hear.

Once upon a time, her mom did the same exact thing but found out speedy quick that it’s only considered cute when you’re six and wearing Mary Janes with ankle socks. When you’re forty-ish and wearing faded aqua leggings from the eighties because your purple tye-dye sweats are dirty, it’s considered a psychotic break.

Who knew?

Once upon a time, I strived to impart upon this little rocker wannabe all the wisdom I had gained during my own youth, a big chunk of which was spent ogling John “Tony Manero” Travolta in Saturday Night Fever.


Once upon a time, she showed me how she shook her badonkadonk.

And I told her in no uncertain terms that she did not have a badonkadonk because, according to the Big Book of Mom, good little girls have bottoms, fannies and/or tushies but they most certainly do not have badonkadonks.

You don’t get a badonkadonk until you go to college and sneak into The Vital and go head to head against a hockey player in a game of beerpong which you ultimately win, immediately after which you and your badonkadonk burn up the dance floor to I Wonder If I Take You Home by Lisa Lisa and Cult Jam which turns out to be oddly prophetic.

I didn’t tell her that part.

Once upon a time, I was simultaneously stunned and relieved to discover the extent to which my baby was going to be an enthusiastic participant in life.

And once upon a time, long before I became a blogger, back when I was a digital scrapbooker and had my shit together and not only took photos but also the time to write the stories behind them in an effort to document our family’s life, I managed to capture this particular moment forever.

Have I mentioned lately that you have evolved into an open book? And not just some ordinary black and white paperback cheapie but one of those mondo, flashy, full color extravaganzas bigger than our kitchen table. You’ve got about a million emotions and express each and every one the instant you feel it. Here, for no explicable reason other than you felt like it, you belted out a song so intensely, you might have been channeling Janis Joplin. You were simply IN the moment. I love that you go from five year old normal to American Idol wannabe at the speed of Mach 10. My own inhibited self tends to tiptoe gingerly on the quiet side of restraint so watching you is like sucking in a massive gulp of 100% pure oxygen. That’s the way to live your life, babe. Live it loud and strong, like it’s your first, last and only chance at it.




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Ann February 13, 2011 at 8:54 am

Why do they grow up so fast! She was a good dancer,and I bet she still does dance in her bedroom when she is all alone!

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Donna Heart February 13, 2011 at 10:15 am

Ooooohhh! I too lament the passing of my scrapbooking days. Painting has taken over my life and now I think I can count on one hand the amount of layouts I completed last year… Shame on me! But you have reminded me of the mantle bestowed upon thyself once I becasme heavy with child 🙂 – to record their past so they knew they mattered… I’m off to scrap the first day of school…
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Janmary, N Ireland
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February 13, 2011 at 10:50 am

Yeahb- back to digi-scrapping! That’s how I first “found” you on the DST blog train 🙂

I have really got out of the way of digi- scrapping too. I promise to do one soon(ish) – If I show you mine will you show me yours?

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Margareta from Paper Pile Kitten's Blog February 13, 2011 at 10:50 am

Fun photos! What a cool little girl!
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Heather @ nobody-but-yourself
Twitter: MissusSmith
February 13, 2011 at 12:26 pm

I remember getting all mushy last year when I read this, and yep, it happened again.

This year, though, I’m more overcome by the GREENNESS of everything behind your little rock star. Dagnabit, where the hey is Spring already?!?!?!
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photojenic February 13, 2011 at 3:14 pm

I had the life sucked out of my scrapbooking about 4 years ago when I volunteered to do a scrapbook for a friend. FINALLY, after four years the project is finished and I’m waiting impatiently for my mojo to return. I have a bunch of photos to scrap too.

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Amanda @ Confessions From HouseholdSix
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February 13, 2011 at 3:47 pm

I haven’t scrapped in at least a year. It’s just gone. I’ve tried looking in the stores for a new kit, but they just don’t spark my creativity like they used to.
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breeoxd February 14, 2011 at 12:50 am

Yeah for you being sucked back into the black hole that is digi scrapping! Its my fav thing in the world to do, and its so great to have company 🙂 Seriously tho, only do it for you- dont try to make money at it again- its sucks the joy and soul and happienss right out of your ears, snout and eyelids, and slurps it up through your internet connection.eck. I just finally quit most of my creative teams, and ive finally scrapped things Ive liked for the first time in forever. Yipppppy!

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Katrina February 14, 2011 at 8:42 am

I love that picture!

And yay for scrapbooking. I look forward to seeing your new pages (if you share them).

Happy Valentine’s Day!
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Twitter: sixfeetunder
February 14, 2011 at 3:35 pm

Stopping by to wish you a Happy Valentines Day!

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Twitter: lisanoel03
February 16, 2011 at 12:50 pm

i just made VERY simple albums for each of us for all out tickets stubs and say the exact same thing…proof that your life as a child did NOT suck. and if they ever say we never DID anything or never WENT anywhere, I will literally throw the book at them.
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