Leaving on a jet plane

Remember my mom and dad?

They are 800 miles away from me.

Right now, he’s lying in the ICU, unresponsive from a stroke this morning.

Right now, she’s alone in a waiting room, trying to be strong.

800 miles is such a goddamn long ways away.

I’m catching a flight down there to … well, I don’t know. Something. Anything.

I’m 43 years old and have never lost anyone close to me.

I don’t want to start now.

I’d like to ask that you think good thoughts for my mom and dad and, if you’re so inclined, to please pray.

Pray that my family can get through this, whatever may happen.

That my stupid fear of flying and driving will take a hiatus and allow me to get down there without a panic attack.

That Nate will feed the girls something other than McDonalds and frozen pizza while I’m gone.

That Oliver’s bladder and bowels will behave themselves until I get back. Even afterward, maybe.

That I get a chance to say I Love You to my dad one more time.

Because I can’t remember if I said it the last time I spoke with him.

I think I did but I’m not sure and that uncertainty is haunting me.

No one can rock the Statue of Liberty like my dad.

I’ll be away for a bit.



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65 thoughts on “Leaving on a jet plane”

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    I just saw Kristin’s post on FB which got me here (first time I’ve been at my computer – or home – all day). If there is ANYTHING you need, just say the word – don’t know if you’ve left yet but I’m good for a ride to/from the airport if Nate can’t do it, etc. We’d even Oliver-sit if you need it. Just say the word okay?

    Prayers being said and I’m adding you, your dad and family to every prayer chain I know.


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    My prayers are with you and your family Andrea <3<3<3<3 Deep breaths. Inhale love exhale fear. Inhale love, exhale fear……

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    I will say a prayer for you and your family. I pray that God looks after you and all your loved ones. That your mom stays strong, that your journey is quick and peaceful, that your dad pulls through, and that you have peace. He *knows* you love him, Andy.

    You’ll be in my thoughts.

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    I’ll be sending my thoughts along with everyone else’s prayers! It puts everything into perspective, doesn’t it?!

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    Donna in West Aus

    Sending love, prayers, hugs and other warm fuzzies your way. Try not to stress about everything at home and just be in the moment with your mum, brother and of course, dad.

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    oh no…oh andy i’m soo sorry. PLEASE PLEASE e-mail me as soon as you can to update. I’ll be working through Wednesday night but after that I PROMISE I will be here. I’m saying a prayer..


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    shedding some tears for you and your. cant help it :O( good luck with your journey(s) and I hope you get to say it out loud again.

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    Don’t know when I’ll be back again……oh babe…I hate to go….

    I am sending much love and light your way. Much love and light and healing to your dad.

    I lost my dad in July in a horrid traffic accident. I am glad that every time he called me, even if just for a phone number, I said “love you dad!” he would always get all embarrassed and say “I love you, too”.

    I believe your dad will be come through this!!

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    Sending love, wishes and well good luck with NO Panic attacks, feel ya there! You can do this and you can make it down to say I love you to your Dad and be there in this time for your Mom and Dad! ((HUGS))

    You all will make it through this, some how, some way!

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    Safe travels. I hope you get the chance to say “I love you” one more time. It’s nice to know for sure you said it one last time. I hope for your sake your dad pulls through. Otherwise, your mom may be calling you more often to ask you why your brother isn’t married yet. (Humor is my coping mechanism) (((HUGS)))

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    I just saw this Andrea. I am SO sorry, sweetie. Sending up prayers right now, and I will continue to pray. Hang in there. I lost my dad to cancer in 1996, so I know how awful it is. However, people DO make full recoveries from strokes nowadays. the Patricia Neal center in Knoxville is a great place for stroke patients, if you can get him there.

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    Prayers and hope your dad recovers quickly. I wouldn’t mention that you shared that pic of him on the internet although he has about the sexiest legs that I’ve ever seen on a man his age. God bless him.

    have a safe flight

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    You are wonderful and beautiful and I’m failing miserably at hosting CML tonight. I wish you could be here and that everything was okay. Sending you lots of prayers sweetie.

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    Missed seeing you on the chat tonight and now know why.

    So sorry to hear about your dad. I empathize with you. I was here in Chicago and my dad was in Canada (Maritimes to be more precise). It was very hard and I did make it back.

    Thinking and praying for you tonight.

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    Sending hugs and prayers your way. I’d blow you kisses too, but the weather here in California is shite and I’m worried they’d be blown in the wrong direction. And then there’d be some serial killer in, like, Nevada getting my kisses and that would be just plain wrong.

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    Andy – you did say I Love You the last time – even if you didn’t’ verbalize it. He knows.

    Prayers and thoughts.

    Stan at Scrappers Workshop

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    My heart hurts for you Zoe. I can only say that you are an energetic, fun and lonivg person (even though we have never met in “real” life) but I enjoy reading your blog adventures and tweets. Your parents must have been amazing people since you are a representation of them and they now live on through you. I have been praying for you and will continue to pray for you. May God restore joy in your life and help you through this hard time.

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