I am busy busy busy getting ready for back to school which is in two weeks.
I am so done with summer. I am so ready for school to start. So ready. As in, I might let the bus slow down a smidge before I fling my kids on it that first day. But no promises.
I thought I’d bring back a post of mine from around this time last year. Not much has changed from summer’s end last year compared to summer’s end this year, so why reinvent the wheel? I’d rather focus my energy on reinventing something that might actually be useful, like my will to live.
Pretend that it’s only twelve days until school starts instead of two weeks. Then this post will make much more sense.
With twelve days left of summer break …
There are only twelve days left of summer break and then comes one of the holiest of all days in our house. We call it THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. This is the day when rainbows appear over our roof and angels fly and sing all over our house and my kids wake up earlier than they have in the last 2½ months and trudge around the house all bleary eyed and half asleep and moaning and complaining while I jump and dance excitedly all around them, telling them to hurry up! Here’s your breakfast! Get dressed! Don’t want to be late! Let’s go, let’s go! Isn’t this wonderful?! The bus will be here any minute! Let’s go! C’mon! Out the door! LET’S GO ALREADY.
I love my kids. I adore them. I would kill for them. I could not breathe without them.
And yes, I know perfectly well there should never be a “but” in this context but seeing as how I have been experiencing some sort of freakish premenopausal thing where my hormones wig out every so often, there is most definitely a “but.” If it makes you feel better, I’ll substitute the word “however.” Is that better?
And see? That snarky attitude right there is a classic example of my hormones getting their panties in a twist and wigging out. That reminds me … could someone call around for Nate? I haven’t seen him in awhile. Tell him it’s safe to come home.
Anyway … However, I have two girls, one’s a highly emotional teenager and the other is a highly emotional budding tween and they either love each other or hate each other, depending on the exact shade of blue in the sky that day. They have been with each other and me almost 24/7 for 2½ months with no camps, no vacations, no break. Get the picture? All but one of my nerves are frazzled. Shot. Destroyed. Decimated. And the one nerve left is scared shitless but can’t escape because they’re standing on it.
I will miss them after they go back to school. I always do. The house becomes too quiet. Too still. And I will berate myself for having had these thoughts of celebration to see them go, I will wallow in guilt by thinking that if I had been a better mother, I would have handled the summer better and I would have appreciated all the time we spent together, even if a good portion of it was spent breaking up fights and yelling. I’m all too aware that these days are going to be gone soon enough and like Trace Adkins says in his totally sexy deep voice, I’m going to miss this. When they get on that bus, I will wish that I was a different kind of mother, the kind with unending patience, the kind that can calm down a hysterical child with a kiss, the kind that doesn’t fly off the handle when being disrespected or when finding clothes dumped on the bathroom floor for the umpteenth time or when tripping over a heaping pile of soggy, smelly pool towels that have been clumped together for two days. I will wish that I wasn’t me. I will wish that I was someone better.
But this won’t happen until after they go back, when I’m sitting here alone and in silence, wishing that my kids would just stop growing up so damn fast and, since I’m at it, wishing that I would stop growing old so damn fast as well.
Until then … my windows are rattling as they are literally screaming at each other because one called the other a bratty snot and the other called the one a freaky loser so here I sit, counting down the days until THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. This is the countdown to an event rivaled only by Christmas in this house so in honor of this occasion, I present the following tune, based very very loosely … so loosely, in fact, that half of the lyrics are missing and the rhythm is all screwed up but it’s the end of summer and I’m lucky I can tie my shoes at this point so bear with me and close your eyes and just pretend … on The Twelve Days of Christmas.
~ WITH TWELVE DAYS LEFT OF SUMMER ~
With twelve days left of summer, my two kids gave to me
A dozen smelly, mildewy pool towels
and a one way ticket up a pear tree
With eleven days left of summer, my two kids gave to me
Eleven “STOP IT, YOU’RE A BRAT, DON’T LOOK AT ME. MOOOOOOOM!”s
and a one way ticket up a big ass pear tree
With ten days days left of summer, my two kids gave to me
Ten hours of crazy stupid
and a one way ticket up a really, really, really big ass pear tree
With nine days left of summer, my two kids gave to me
Nine possibles for the stench emanating from the kitchen
and a one way ticket up a big ass. Oops, sorry. I mean, a big ass pear tree.
With eight days left of summer, my two kids gave to me
Eight “I DID NOT! YOU DID! STOP LYING! I’M TELLING MOM! MOOOOOOOM”s
and a one way ticket up a big ass pear tree. With thorns.
With seven days left of summer, my two kids gave to me
Seven reasons to run away
and a one way ticket up a big ass pear tree. With thorns. Surrounded by poison ivy.
With six days left of summer, my two kids gave to me
Six hours of driving and driving and driving and then some more driving
and a one way ticket up the stupid pear tree that I swear to GOD is mocking me
With five days left of summer, my two kids gave to me
FIIIIIIIIIVE GOOOOOOLD-EN MIGRAINES
and a one way ticket up … you guessed it … the big ass pear tree
With four days left of summer, my two kids gave to me
Four hours of peace and quiet interrupted by five hours of yelling
and a one way ticket up that goddamn pear tree that won’t die already
With three days left of summer, my two kids gave to me
Three more summer reading assignments. Surprise! *Thud*
and a one way ticket up the &%$#@ pear tree
With two days left of summer, my two kids gave to me
Two tons of dirty clothes
and a one way ticket up … ugh, I can’t even say it anymore
On the last day of summer, my two kids gave to me
An apology and I love you’s
and a brand new, gift-wrapped with a bow and sealed with a kiss … ladder.
~ The End ~